I finished college! Um, hello real life?

I’m sorry for not updating this blog again. What happened to me? I used to love writing a lot. Well, life has been turning things without we even realizing.

Here we go…

I’ve graduated (Alhamdulillah! Hurrayy!), I can add the S.T. after my name officially.

IG: firnandarr

Last semester was totally insane!! So much things happened and I am so grateful for all those things.

I have completed some of my 2016 bucket list:

-was a finalist in CPDC --unfortunately not in the top 3, but we got people’s choice, not bad huh? considering we have Eja as Ketua BEM he he he.

-received the DIKTI scholarship for PKM UI to PIMNAS, although I wasn’t really going to PIMNAS.

-made PKM for OIM FT UI (guess what? I (and team) won the first place in two categories and DTK finally won the title back!! Couldn’t be more prouddd *tears coming down)

-took IELTS preparation test. Well, I can say that TBI is one of the best English course in town! Not even regret…….. but yeah, I haven’t take the real IELTS yet until now ha ha ha

-finished my thesis on time and with good mark. Thankyou Mrs. Dianursanti, you inspired me a lot. Uh I missed my 7 reactors and Spirulina in it.

-reached my final GPA target, it’s not cumlaude (but it’s so closeee huft), but I was pretty satisfied, u know, with all the non-academic stuff activities going together and all.

-was 45 kg when I’m wearing the kebaya, umm 45.9 kg to be exact wkwkwkwkwk. Still.

-Organized my feeling well. See, dude, I mature enough to control my own feeling now. Thanks to the-boy-who-broke-my-heart-beautifully, now I know it’s hard for me to start relationship and I carefully hide it. ARGH. Bismillah, ya Allah.

Yet, there are also sooooo many things un-achieved as days have passed, but it’s ok, 2016 is not over yet. Fight nan!

Oh, and another highlight is I joined MADK FTUI 2016 committee as wakabid materi -never thought about it before since I was already struggling with my thesis. But I won't complain! I enjoyed the moment, it was a super. And I never expected it would be this fun to work with them!

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What do I do now? Waiting for opportunity to a better development hahaha.

Well, searching for a proper job is not easy, actually.  It’s as hard as searching soulmate (yikes, but true). I have to find a company that I need and needs me back *please need me back! :(

But you know what consumes me? The time of waiting for uncertainty –with no goals, no plans, no excitements. I feel no life. I feel it’s stop. I need something to do. I need to be more myself, who always get busy with goals, plans, and excitements. And I need more hellos. It’s killing me to not doing anything at home, with no people to interact with, ugh (my extrovert side come to the surface)!

And then it’s like my life cycle has ended and will start again soon: rejections, obstacles, rumors, misunderstandings, heart breaks, good byes –I will face it again, have to be ready and adapt fast. Wish me.... um, not luck, it hates me. Wish me well, I guess? Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Bintang yang tertinggal

Aku bercahaya. Aku yakin aku bercahaya.
Tapi rasanya... silau ini tidak datang dari cahayaku. Ia datang dari bintang yang lainnya.

Aneh. Kupikir cahaya yang dipendarkan setiap bintang itu sama.
Atau setidaknya di sini, di tempat ini, seharusnya kita sama bukan?

1 + 1 = 2
Oh, jadi begitu.
Bukan aku yang cahayanya pudar.
Tapi bintang lainnya yang berkumpul menghasilkan sinar yang terang.
Terlalu terang.
Silau.
Seakan cahaya bintang yang lainnya tidak diperhatikan. Tidak terlalu dominan. Tidak berarti.



Aku adalah bintang yang tertinggal.

2016

Telat ngga bikin pos ini? hehe
well, bisa diliat kalau post ini dipublikasikan pada tanggal 7 Januari 2016, udah seminggu dari lembaran baru.

2015 is such a very difficult year. sampai saat ini, 2012 masih jadi tahun favorite, diikuti 2014. meanwhile, di 2015 gue merasa banyak tangisan kelelahan hehe, padahal orang-orang mengalamai masa-masa yang sama seperti gue tapi kenapa gue sendiri ya yang nangis huft. tapi Alhamdulillah 2015 banyak memberikan pelajaran berharga.

hari terakhir di 2015 kemarin gue ke lereng gunung merapi di jawa tengah. pemandangannya bagus banget lagi-lagi ngga berhenti bersyukur Tuhan menciptakan bumi ini dengan indahnya.

"Berada di tempat dengan arah pandang yang luas dengan perpaduan cahaya dan wangi rumput, tidakkah membuatmu lebih ringan untuk bernafas? Lebih jernih untuk berpikir? Lebih peka untuk bersyukur?"

RESOLUSI 2016? ada kok, tapi bukan resolusi kali ya mungkin lebih ke target (yang ngga gue share di sini). Gue harus berhati-hati banget karena tahun 2016 ini adalah tahun yang krusial, bisa jadi titik balik segala hal. tahun di mana gue lulus tepat waktu (aamiin) dan akan ada perpisahan, bertemu lingkungan baru, hati baru, pikiran baru, pola hidup yang baru pula. HARUS JAGO ADAPTASI NIH (aamiin).

Omong2! Alhamdulillah kemarin sidang seminarnya dilancarkan, revisinya dilancarkan, sekarang lagi sibuk menyiapkan file2 untuk masuk lab. yeayyy ngga sabar ketemu Chlorella dan Spirulina lagi!! doain ya semoga dilancarkan juga.

Another Random Thought:
Semoga PSDM beneran konsol 3-4 angkatan
Mau jalan2 sama mislead lagi
Semoga adik asuhku berkontribusi di IMTK dengan baik
BTW kemarin ada kasus ketua BEM UNJ yang di DO, wah kagum sih berani jadi garda terdepan kayak gitu, alhamdulillah udah damai ya bang tetap semangat mengawal kebenaran.
Semoga bisa lolos jadi finalis CPDC
Semoga IP semester ini memuaskan
Mau beli lipstick baru deh
Temen2ku udah pada lulus yang 3,5 tahun seneng bangettt!! wish you all the best gais!
dll udah abis ide hehe

post selanjutnya gue bakal ngereview buku-buku yang udah gue baca untuk liburan kali ini, ditunggu ya! Me laf ya blog see u soon!